Day 21....

I started this blog in attempt to help myself grow as a person by analyzing myself inch by inch. I knew it was going to be hard, no one ever said it was going to be easy, but once I found that people were actually paying attention to the, what I felt was, meaningless nonsense I was writing, feeling, thinking, I got scared. I halted the blog. But although the blog postings stopped, the learning experience never stopped. These last few days have showed me the best ways to help make myself a better person ( or at least I feel they have). I can help myself best by helping others, if it's one person or a million, it's my destiny. It's what I need to do. And this blog is ME and will be me and whatever I'm thinking and whatever cause I'm believing in at the time so I hope you all are prepared to be as passionate about my life as I am. And I promise the deeper my thoughts the "not so all over the place" they will be...lol =)

Let's Get It *MUAH*

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Day 3

Today I felt really bad, halfway, because my YOUNGER cousin decided she felt the need to have to tell me how to act in public toward her friends. WHAT THE HECK?!! what kind of mess is that?! Don't you realize I am grown?! She said my bluntness is a tad too much for people who don't know me. But I feel like I should be able to speak my mind and it's not like I'm being rude. First off, let me tell you.....this clown she went to see was young and disrespectful and had the nerve to roll his eyes at me and talk to me like I am one of his peers instead of his elder...he def got the wrong one on the wrong day!! If you're in my presence and I'm basically doing you a favor COME CORRECT or GET PUT IN YOUR PLACE, A CHILD'S PLACE!I couldn't believe it! I only felt bad because my cousin felt like I embarrassed her. And the only reason I am even thinking about the situation is because she isn't the first to say something about it, but then again everyone who has had this same issue is younger than me and they have some very childish associates and I don't play these childish games with them!

It's appearing to me that the first issue I need to address is my initial impression amongst people and my "attitude" towards them. Who's going to be the first to help me address this issue???

Don't bite your tongue, I don't. I need your help, so help me please.

Day 2

Soooo....today while I was pondering more ideas about myself I started to think about how over night I've wanted to be more rebellious and how now I am actually forcing myself to continue this blog (that I JUST started). It's mind boggling to me how one minute I want to do one thing and "get my self together" and the next I want to rebel, chop my hair off, die it red, and make a BOLD statement. It seems like the moment I choose to "do right, get right" some sort of mood changing event occurs that makes me want to scream "F*** the world" and show everybody how much of a bada** I can be. Right now I am fighting myself not to do that because that is the exact person I am working on changing for the better....this is already becoming more of a headache then I thought it would be but I'm not going to give up.....at least not yet! But I need to figure out how to get pass this stage and find out what's next.




The party is just beginning.....Don't leave yet, come back and join me!

Day 1

So, I figured the best way to start this 90 day process would be to do an analysis of some components of myself, starting with my personality. First off, I would like to take a look at how I view myself, how I feel that others view me, and finally I would like to reflect on these matters and analyze what things I can make some positive changes to.

*I view myself as a very vivid individual, with a strong personality. I'm not afraid to speak my mind, I can be very blunt, and I am definitely not the type of person to bite my tongue. I can have the tendency to be a tad bit overly expressive as well. But with that being said, I feel as if I wouldn't be me if I I were missing any of these components.

*I feel as though everyone else views me as a loud, obnoxious, controlling, selfish brat. And on top of that I feel as though everyone takes my bluntness out of context as rudeness.

*As far as traits that can be changed on a positive note, the jury is still out on that notion. But then again that is why this is a growth period.....I am not expected to change over night, and Lord knows 90 days is pushing it with me! lol

So, for approximately the next week or so, the post are going to be centered around me really sort of connecting with myself, discovering myself, and identifying characteristics about myself. I also ask for input as to how you (my readers) view me, and what you think would be a great next step in moving forward with my process. I ask that you please be patient with me, as this is something new that I am trying and I have a feeling that I am going to end up getting a tad bit emotional on my end of this progression line. But let's remember, since you've tuned in....WE'RE ALL IN THIS TOGETHER!!LOL

Thanks all! I do look forward to reading your comments and please remember ALL input is welcomed and encouraged, so feel free to share how you view me!

*SMOOCHES*

....until tomorrow

And the journey begins.......

I've often heard the statement, "There is always room for improvement in each and everyone of us." For myself, I personally believe that I am the best you'll ever get! LOL! No, that was a joke. But seriously, at one point in time I thought 'what you see is what you get' and I felt that I didn't have to change. And I was correct. I didn't HAVE to change but I do NEED to make a change, for the better that is. A wise person once told me that I won't be by myself forever, so that means as great a person as I may be, I do need to make some adjustments to invite others into my world. So, starting December 1, 2010 I am beginning my 90 day "transformation" to the "NEW and IMPROVED" me! My blog site, this blog site, will become as my new journal and I will give all of my followers insite into my world. You'll know what's going on in Ne-Na's head and how I am transforming each day and what I am doing to help myself become an even better person!

Pray For Me!!

;) Stay Tuned.....