Soooo....today while I was pondering more ideas about myself I started to think about how over night I've wanted to be more rebellious and how now I am actually forcing myself to continue this blog (that I JUST started). It's mind boggling to me how one minute I want to do one thing and "get my self together" and the next I want to rebel, chop my hair off, die it red, and make a BOLD statement. It seems like the moment I choose to "do right, get right" some sort of mood changing event occurs that makes me want to scream "F*** the world" and show everybody how much of a bada** I can be. Right now I am fighting myself not to do that because that is the exact person I am working on changing for the better....this is already becoming more of a headache then I thought it would be but I'm not going to give up.....at least not yet! But I need to figure out how to get pass this stage and find out what's next.
The party is just beginning.....Don't leave yet, come back and join me!
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